I'm sick of writing titles..

So the Ballet was pretty cool.. I had a great time. Julie and I went to the reception after the ballet, I thought I'd feel uncomfortable with all high society folks but I did not. Anyway after the wine and cheese thing we headed over to Panama's for a few drinks, I had a pretty good time. I'm really looking forward to this evening. I really want to hang with my friends. I feel like freaking out, I think screaming some gibberish after a death metal band with Marty will fill the craving. I don't want to have anything to do with any scenes tonight, no drama! just me and my friends. I don't think my mind could handle any deep conversations cause I'm running on 5 hours sleep and the night before last I only slept around 7 or so.

I think I'm going to drop in at Mike's tonight for a beer or 5, from there I'm going to head over to Anick's until we go to the Manhattan to see the bands.

I'm feeling pretty damn good today... I've started writing this blog when I got here, which was about an hour ago and I already don't feel the same way as I did when I started the blog.

You know what I hate, people that think they know what you're thinking. Don't think you can get in my head so easily. I find myself wanting to say: "Fuck you, you don't have a fucking clue what you're talking about" but since this will get me nowhere I just tell them that they're wrong and leave it at that. the tough part is when they want to argue with me about how I feel or think. I SO want to argue with them but I don't let myself. I think I learned this from my brother Brian. If you start an argument with him and he sees that the both of you don't agree he will stop the conversation right in it's tracks, if you persist he'll just agree with whatever you say... it's pretty funny to hear..

Today I feel like I have to sit back and sort of let the chips fall as they may. Sometimes I feel like I have to try to help everybody or get everything done or try to make people understand certain things but today I will not do that. I'm going to spend my brain power looking at the things that are important, at things of value. I'm going to think of myself and how to improve myself or at least improve on the way I approach certain things or react to certain things, it seems like this is an neverending study. I mean I think I'm pretty wise in this domain but I guess everyone probably thinks the same way about themselves but nevertheless I continue to try to teach myself to improve. I'm in a mood where I'm like: Fuck it... what are you going to do about it Ricky? just chillax... enjoy... So that's what I'm going to do...

Anyway.. Tonight while at the Manhattan I'm going to slip in to the O2 so I can bust a move for a while... get a freak on...

Have a great day kids...