So what's next?

Today my feelings are sort of all over the map. I guess I don't know how to feel. So many mixed feelings coming up to Xmas and with everthing going on in my life right now. Just want to kinda feel relaxed but it seems like there's nothing furthur away than relaxation. I feel like I have a lot of responsability, not only with work but with everything else in my life, people to make sure are alright, friends to keep up with. I'm currently feeling sad. Sadned by the fact that nothing is ever perfect and never will be. There will always be pain and people who will be mean and unkind but what keeps me going is the good in people and the small miracles that occur from time to time. I know this blog doesn't really make much sense but I guess that's kind of how I feel, sort of confused and emotional. So, another day is here, it will soon be gone, how will I make this day one to remember?....

thanks for reading.